Beautiful Blogger Award


Tracy Rydzy – http://ohwhatapain.wordpress.com nominated me for the Beautiful Blogger Award.  Tracy’s blog is a true eye-opener to me.  Tracy deals with chronic and severe back pain every day of her life.  Through her words I have learnt to understand Vic’s pain, frustrations and despair better.  Tracy also has a superb sense of humor.  I recommend Tracy’s blog to everyone who is either in pain, or who has a loved one in pain.

Tracy, I am humbled by your nomination.  I am absolutely thrilled!!!  And yes, yes, yes I accept!  Thank you very much!

Beautiful Blogger Award:

The Rules for The Beautiful Blogger Award:

  • Write a little something about the Beautiful Blogger who nominated you with the award. See above. And don’t forget to go and check his out too.
  • Share 7 things about yourself: I can only hope to keep you interested!!
  1. I don’t have a romantic bone in my body
  2. I have the rare ability to love unconditionally.  This is part of my heritage that I treasure most
  3. My GP closed my file  because he thought I had relocated or died….I am one of the healthiest people on earth!
  4. I don’t read mushy love stories.
  5. I have been married for 22 years to a wonderful man.  He cares for Vicky and her boys as if they are his own.  He is The Wind Beneath My Wings
  6. We do not have a special song…..
  7. I know more about armored vehicles than cooking.
  •   Nominate 7 other bloggers for the award:

I have nominated the following bloggers because I enjoy their blogs very much and have found their information and comments helpful:

  1. http://nogramsmom.wordpress.com/
  2. http://onewomansperspective02.wordpress.com/
  3. http://halfwaybetweenthegutter.wordpress.com
  4. http://grammarofgrief.wordpress.com
  5. http://lightinthechaos.wordpress.com
  6. http://pamelahesterking.wordpress.com
  7. http://staciegh.wordpress.com

 

God’s Megaphone…….


C.S. Lewis says “Pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our consciences, but shouts in our pains. It is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.”

For 37 years I have bargained with God.  He alone knows of all my anguish, tears, pleading, my fears and pain.  I am strong.  I don’t cry easily or often.   I have cried before God.  Pleaded with Him for mercy.

He chose to ignore my pleas for mercy.

I have not been to Church in more than two years.  I attended Marlene and then my Dad’s funeral.  I went to one service at Reuben church.  I have been angry with God….. Disappointed that the God of Mercy I learnt about from my parents’ knees does not exist.  I have only experienced a God who has sentenced my child, and now my grandson, to a life of pain and suffering.

Today I attended the annual church fete.  The arms that I have missed for more than 2 years enveloped me.  Kisses rained on my cheeks.  “I have missed you”, “We still pray for you and Vicky everyday of our lives”….. “It is so good to see you!”

The minister, Martin, hugged me and said “I think of you every day.  We are always here for you….

I cried.  I miss my church friends but I cannot go back for the wrong reasons.

I wondered tonight why the friendships did not last outside the confines of the church?  I realized that our pain is too much for people to cope with.  They hurt for me…..

But in the  silence in our everyday lives is deafening…God’s megaphone has obviously not roused the deaf in our world…….