Today I wore Vic’s pearls and perfume.
Her favourite perfume, Beautiful – Estee Lauder, reacts differently to my skin but I could smell “her smell” on me the whole day.
My meetings went well. I am happy with the outcome. It is as if my soul is removed from my body – I feel as if I am looking in from the outside. I see and hear a confident, poised person talking in a matter of fact tone of voice. I hear myself asking intelligent questions and yet it is a shell sitting there.
No-one sees my sadness and grief.
I miss Vic more and more as each day passes by. I am starting to realise that Vic is truly never coming home! The house is big and empty!
my thoughts are with you.
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My prayers are with you. Big hugs.
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I do feel for you. I think everyone tends to agree that this may be the hardest part about grieving – that realisation.
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It will be 2 years saturday that my son has been gone. Yesterday was a beautiful day and I made myself go out side. Sitting on my glider on the front porch, I could see my son in my mind’s image. He was smiling and laughing and ask me if I was ready to give up on my grief. That he was happy and doing good. It was said it my head, but with my son’s voice and his way of talking and calling me momma.
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This comment is so beautiful. I am very sorry for the loss of your son and your words brought tears to my eyes. I was thinking of the words “never getting over it.” I think instead of getting over grief, we must simply “go through it.” We come out on the other side – never the same as we once were. But when grief eases, there is a rainbow. Your son’s voice and moment of peace was your rainbow. Tersia, there will be a rainbow for you. Hang in there as you are going through the amputation of your soul. It is too soon for you to be ready to give up your grief.
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thank you Judy. Tersia, my heart bleeds for you. You are just beginning your journey.
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Your words to God’s ear Judy….
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Oh how I long to hear Vic’s voice in my head! I believe your son is reaching out to you!!
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Good luck for you as you move forward, be thinking of you. God bless
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