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“Chloe, sweetie, wake up!  You have to go to school!”

“Nooooooo….I don’t want you to go!!” she wailed.

“We will see you again after Christmas….and Oupie is coming to see you next week!”

“Okay!”

For the last time in a long time I dressed my precious little Chloe.  I held her skinny little body and breathed in the smell of her hair.  Tears ran down my cheeks when I thought “How long before I can hold her again…”

I fed her… brushed her teeth and held her cup when she drank her tea.  Now I must tell you that my little Chloe is very independent and she only humoured me….

Georgia came and sat on my lap and said “Me want you to stay…”  She did not cry when I left.  I cried.

I hate goodbyes!  There are so many tears between “goodbye baby – see you soon” and “Hello my angel, I missed you”…

Tomorrow morning I am home.  I will see my beloved Vicky and all my grandchildren!  Jared has been posting on his BBM status how much he misses me… It is sad to leave but that is the way life is.  We can never have it all.

As much as we desire good health, joy, peace, financial security, love and laughter for us and our loved ones, it is impossible to achieve all of it!  We are a blessed family.  We have love, laughter, joy and peace.  Good health eludes us…  We cannot all be together and see one another on a regular basis.  Yet we are not separated from all the children and grandchildren.  And Skype is great!

I am surrounded by a wonderful family who care and love unconditionally!  I have an amazing husband who I adore.  I don’t have many friends but my few friends are loyal, supportive and caring.

Chloe loves treasure hunts. In May when we had a treasure hunt I hid Mr Maker surprises   Chloe promptly told me that the Pirates cheated.  They did not hide coins and Mr Maker presents don’t count!  So this time around I went armed with a map of my room and chocolate coins …. When she gets home from school today she will go to my room to double check that I have really left!  The postman delivered the Treasure Map this morning… I wish I was there to see her having fun…

Tomorrow I will go to gym with Jared and Jon-Daniel and I hope to see Henk and Yuri.  Maybe I will see Kari and Simone on Friday…