I am scared


Today was an horrible day.  Dr Sue spent a lot of time with Vic.  Siza (Hospice Nurse) was here too.

Vic’s BP is elevated and her heart rate fluctuates between 115 and 120.  Her breathing is laboured.  She appears to be a little jaundiced.  Sue says the vomiting is due to the kidney failure.

Tomorrow we will try and run some Perfalgan intravenously.  If only her veins were strong enough to tolerate an IV drip…

I am scared.


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I am a sixty plenty wife, mother, sister, grandmother and friend. I started blogging as a coping mechanism during my beautiful daughter's final journey. Vic was desperately ill for 10 years after a botched back operation. Vic's Journey ended on 18 January 2013 at 10:35. She was the most courageous person in the world and has inspired thousands of people all over the world. Vic's two boys are monuments of her existence. She was an amazing mother, daughter, sister and friend. I will miss you today, tomorrow and forever my Angle Child. https://tersiaburger.wordpress.com

15 thoughts on “I am scared”

  1. Oh My sweet tersia.
    Your title pulled me into this post as usual but with a whole lot more hurry in my step

    I can only say to you that you & Vic are in my prayers for a merciful weekend. I have a prayer candle that i have been lighting each night in Vic;s name. tonight when I light it you both will be held up for God in my request for God to envelope you with his mercy and lift some of your pain Both of yours.

    Sending my Friday night my gentle hugs, and love for you both my dear friend. ~ God Bless!


  2. Dearest Tersia,

    FEAR. . .

    I have been there and I remember it well. The horror of fear caused my heart to pound and brain to explode. Chills went down the base of my spine and my stomach fell ten stories. My hands shook and it was hard to breathe.

    FEAR is so primal!

    Tersia – take out your blanket of love. Wrap yourself and Vic in it. From across thousands of miles there are many people that love you so much. Feel that love. I am sending mine to you.

    Love will take away the fear. You and Vic have more than enough love. You will both make it through. She is simply moving to a new destination free from pain. Hang on.


  3. We are on our knees for you You are scared and so are we. So sorry for your family I don’t have words only to cry with you.


  4. i am scared for you. please just know that so many of us are sending love and light your way. there is nothing i can say that will make this easier so i will only say that i understand your fear and it is pure. my heart is pounding for you both.


  5. As I have never walked this road, I am speechless, but know that I am thinking of you and the whole family with a prayer for comfort.


  6. I’m devastated for you and remember well the adrenaline high that comes from being present at such a time. I shared this post of yours with all of the daughters of Tapestries of Hope and we’re encircling you and yours with love and light. There are no words to say to make this bearable. Just breathe and be present for the unfolding. Sending you love-Alison, daughter of Betty Catharine


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