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Birthday wishes from Heaven


Yesterday it was my birthday.

On Sunday I surrounded myself with my Steel Magnolia friends and loved ones.  Everyone tried so hard to make things better and easier for me.  The little girls especially were so sweet.  Jon-Daniel was very quiet and avoided me. Jared was gentle and loving.

I thought I hid my feelings well.  I laughed loud and a lot. When everyone sang “happy birthday” I saw sadness, for me, in my one friend’s eyes.  No matter how much I laughed and smiled she saw through my mask…

Some people know our souls. They see our hearts. They care enough to want to protect.

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I took a sleeping tablet Sunday night.  I normally wake up early enough to see the sun come up.  I just lie and watch the light increase through the branches of the big oak tree.  This is my “reflection time”.  I was determined to sleep for as long as possible.

I still sleep on the sofa in my TV lounge.  I have not been able to move back into my bedroom.  I still lie on the sofa waiting for Vic to either call me or come shuffling down the passage.  I seldom sleep before 2am.  That was pain meds time…

Yesterday morning I woke up from a slight noise in the kitchen.  I knew it was either Danie or the boys making tea.  The next moment I heard people singing.  It was my Steel Magnolia friend, Rina, the boys and Danie.  She had colluded with the boys and Danie the previous day.  She sneaked in with wonderful warm scones, cheese and cream.  The boys made tea…

It was a very difficult day.  I took no phonecalls…I only spoke with my siblings, the kids and one other friend.  I attended the funeral of an old friend.  I never cried a single tear.

Last night we went to dinner and movies.  We watched a slapstick comedy.  When we got home I had to clear out my car as it was booked for a service today.  When I emptied the cubbyhole I discovered an old birthday card from Vic… The card was dated 9.12.2000

Bday card cover 2000 Bday card 2000All the cards I ever received from Vic, Danie, the other kids and grandchildren are in a beautiful memory box.  I simply just don’t understand how this card landed up in the cubbyhole of my car.

I am so blessed.  It was a good birthday.  I was surrounded by love and friendship. I received birthday wishes from heaven!  

Thank you my precious Angel Child.  I love you with all my heart.  It is such a comfort knowing that you are with me.  I am grateful that you knew how much I loved you.

 

 

 

 

 

Author:

I am a sixty something wife,mother, sister, grandmother and friend. I started blogging as a coping mechanism during my beautiful daughter's final journey. Vic was desperately ill for 10 years after a botched back operation. Vic's Journey ended on 18 January 2013 at 10:35. She was the most courageous person in the world and has inspired thousands of people all over the world. Vic's two boys are monuments of her existence. She was an amazing mother, daughter, sister and friend. I will miss you today, tomorrow and forever my Angle Child. https://tersiaburger.wordpress.com

17 thoughts on “Birthday wishes from Heaven

  1. What wonderful friends you have and although I know that you were holding back your tears, good for you for going through the motions, even if for everyone else – especially those little ones! It is powerful to me that even in our darkest times, we go through our days and memories of what we do are being held by others! You got up, you got dressed, you ate cake (the table was very impressive) and allowed others to sing! Your life has value even in your suffering. The greatest gift was your daughter’s message from beyond, another reminder of how much you are loved. Birthday greeting from one December baby to another…

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  2. The picture of you and your family is so beautiful; so much a celebration of your life, and Vic’s life as well. Of course – no surprise that Vic managed to send along a birthday card to her dear Mother. Blessings…

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  3. Tersia, I am so glad something was made of your birthday – light, company, sharing. These are lovely photos. Blessings. Life does have to go on, they say they say, but every time I come to your space here, I just don’t know what I’d do if I lost Daniel.

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  4. It sounds like a very good birthday. My next post that I’m currently writing is actually about how really hard times seem to make for the best celebrations. When you’re saddest and hurting the most, something like a birthday can be more enjoyed than if everything was peachy. Thats quite a spread you got by the way! So many treats and they all look homemade! Jealous. :)

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