Today is a bad day. This past week has been a horrific week. I have missed Vic and her unconditional love so much this week. Not only her unconditional love of and for me and her boys but also the love that she radiated into the world…
I have looked through photos of Vic and going through her Facebook page, and I know I cannot do what she did.
I cannot bring the joy in her boys’ lives that she did. Vic was a fun person, and if she had one spare breath of oxygen in her little body she would organize a party. I looked at Vic’s photos, and I saw the fun she had with her boys.
Vic would space bank energy and willpower to watch Jon-Daniel play tennis or cricket… That took serious commitment!
I know I am their safe haven. I can just never be what Vic was in their lives.
I miss laughing. I miss being happy.