South Africa is advertised as “Sunny South Africa” with beautiful white shores and blue skies. Barbeque is our national pastime. Today is an overcast day. It is as if Mother Nature is preparing me for England’s grey skies, drizzling cold and wet weather.
By now I assume everyone has concluded that I got the go-ahead from Hospice to travel!
I am hopping, skipping and jumping with excitement. I cannot wait to see my UK babies. Not only see them but hug, kiss and hold them.
Vic is insisting that I go. We are both fearful but I also realise that I desperately need a break. There is never a perfect time. Vic is very swollen and not well at the moment. She is partially obstructed but we will clear it by Thursday. The Hospice Sister will pop in every day to evaluate and monitor her and report back to me.
In the words of the Hospice Sister Ceza: “Things are slowly going downhill. Go now. You need your strength for what lies ahead”.
Timing, as always, is an issue. Vic is well enough for me to travel but on Monday it is little Yuri (youngest grandson’s) school concert, Simone (2nd eldest granddaughter) birthday and Lani’s (2nd eldest stepdaughter) 40th birthday in the week that I will be away. I have still not seen Liza and Adrian…. On the other hand I will get to see the girls “trick or treat”, Chloe is on a week’s school holidays and I will watch the extravagant Guy Fawkes fireworks displays and bonfires being lit… I feel so selfish and caught between two fires.
I am scared for Vic, worried about the boys, guilty for Yuri, Simone and Lani and excited as can be about seeing Danie, Michaela and the girls. On the one hand I feel so selfish. On the other hand I realise that I need a break. It has been a year out of hell! On a daily basis the demands on me are increasing. It sounds as if I am having a pity party and/or trying to justify my decision to go to the UK….Yes I am!
The Hospice Nurse will start on Wednesday evening. I must shop for groceries and ensure all meds are in stock. I must write up a medication schedule for the nurse….
Got to run! Lots to do! I will make it up to everyone….I hope!
I will only be 14 hours away from Vic….
Vic's Final Journey 