Today was a particularly bad day. For the first time since Vic’s memorial service I attended a Church Service. I dreaded the arms of comfort and gentle words of sympathy that was inevitable. Danie went with me. As we walked into the doors the arms were there…hugging and patting! Our entry caused a little stir among the congregation..
Danie took my hand and led me to our old place in the pews. People actually got up from where they were sitting to come and say “Hello” and “I am praying for you”…. Tears just ran down my cheeks and I COULD NOT stop crying! All I could see in my mind’s eye was my beautiful, precious child’s coffin in the front on the church – surrounded by white candles and St Josephs lilies.
The worship team started singing, and I could not even see the words on the screen through my tears.
As the service went I calmed down. I kept telling myself to “get a grip” which I eventually did.
After the service I cried in the embrace of my minister, church friends and acquaintances.
This evening I opened my emails and found a beautiful email from Jane@ http://johannisthinking.com/. I wanted to post some of it with the beautiful picture and went into her blog to copy her blog address when I found this amazing poem that I am going to share with you.
Jane’s writes in her Email:-You are NOT alone—-there is LIGHT all around YOU! When I found this…I thought….Yes, this is Tersia! …and your daughter is surrounding YOU with love and light! BELIEVE it!You deserve to live in the LIGHT…..and it is NOT wrong to be happy….Vic is at peace and living in the LIGHT……and one day you will find her again…….until then…be gentle to YOU…..what would you tell her to do IF the situation was reversed? What if you were the ONE who had to leave this Mother Earth ? What would you say to your daughter? You say you “two are ONE”—-and I do believe it is true——— so speak to your inner child as you would speak to her! WE ALL NEED YOUR VOICE!
I cried again. I am so grateful that the goodness and the light that surrounded Vic and radiated from her, is seen by the world. Thank you dear Jane for telling me. Thank you for your words, your poetry and above all the Angel of Light. Thank you for caring!!
Dedicated to Tersia Burger *** between the deep sighs tears fall one by one
ever so slowly they form quietly…silently descend water tears cascading
- ridding the pitchblende
will they ever end water crystal healers nature taking care of you helping you transcend freeing you until…you find yourself home again…
ice-kaleidoscope (Photo credit: JeremyO\K)
So, today was emotional but healing! I was surrounded by love and compassion. For the first time in a long time I did not feel isolated in my grief.
So to every one who comments and emails; I thank you for your love and support in my journey of mourning my child. For many years I have had a fear of allowing people close to me – I truly fear that they will betray my trust and friendship. I KNOW I must allow people close
to me. Blogging is allowing me see that there is kindness, goodness and unconditional caring out there….
Thank you all from the bottom of my heart!
5 thoughts on “Angel of Light”
(((( Tersia )))) many hugs! YOU are LOVELY!
You received another gift from Vic today, people surrounding you and supporting you and loving you as you cry. I can imagine Vic would have loved to see you surrounded in that much love. My heart goes out to you as you hurt so deeply. I’m sending my love too xo
it is an honor to be let in and share my love, faith and conviction with you. you continue to amaze me and i know that vic is proud to see you are letting others give you what comfort they can offer.
And above everything else God is there for you, in the innermost of your being He is comforting you and lifting you up, giving you strength to take each day one at a time. I am glad that you and Danie went to church and that you felt comforted by it and did not feel even more isolated. Hugs to give you a sunshine day today.
As difficult as this tremendous grief is, the other side is as beautiful.
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