Month: September 2015

Our Hearts Will Always Touch by Ranja Kujala (Changed)

When I laid there beside you,
Could you feel me there?
My arms were wrapped around you,
And I was stroking your hair.

I was talking about all the good times,
For me they were every single day.
I wanted you to feel love and comfort,
Be happy in some way.

I watched your every breath,
And prayed that each one wasn’t your last.
The time we got to share together,
Went by too quick…Too fast.

I wanted you to wake up,
Please Vic…Open your eyes.
Tell me this is a nightmare,
And not our goodbyes.

As your last breath grew closer,
We lay there peacefully together.
My heart continually breaking,
Because I wanted you forever.

Then there it was,
Your final breath of air.
I didn’t want to believe it,
It was so cruel and not fair.

I held your beautiful face,
And…

Urghhh!  Yesterday was a horrible day!

Vic was fine but it was Pain Clinic day…………. I start stressing about the Pain Clinic the day before.  Although it is on an appointment only basis, it is also first come first serve……

With the amount of morphine Vic takes, she needs to be assessed on a monthly basis by a pain specialist.  Vic was not able to go with yesterday morning so I set off on my own.  By now the Pain Team knows me well.  Even when Vic goes I am actually able to give them more succinct feedback on Vic’s pain control than she is.

Generally I do not have a problem in getting her script even when I am on my own.  I walked in just before 8am and the waiting area was packed!  My heart dropped into my shoes.  It was going to be a longggggg day…..

Surprise…

Schedule 6 medication – 28 days supply

Just seconds ago I was thinking “What a glorious wonderful day…” when the thought crossed my mind “Hang on a minute…. It is a glorious day because Hospice have agreed to evaluate my sick child????”

Hello!!! How sick is that that our lives has degenerated into a hellhole where Hospice is good news!!

This morning Christa, an internationally acclaimed pain expert, came to evaluate Vic at home. She spent a lot of time with Danie and me to build up a case history on Vic. Christa works for Janssen Pharmaceutical Company as a “Medical Scientific Liaison: Pain”… Part of her responsibilities is to liaise and advise the Pain Clinic and Hospice as an expert!

It was as if a floodgate opened. I rambled on about Vic’s (health) background, history, symptoms, operations, treatment and decisions. I showed X-Rays and photo’s of Vic abdomen…

~~September 9, 2015~~ 

THE EGG IS IMPORTANT … TOSS THE KID AWAY?

The Devastation Wrought By ISIS Has Forced 4,000,000 Into Camps

These families have witnessed horrors beyond belief.

Had they remained they would have been slaughtered.

Now they live in tents, with limited access to food water. Supplies are limited and tens-of-thousands are fleeing to Europe.

Even in this crisis, food is being cut off to 200,000 refugees.

~~SOURCES~~

http://www.refugees.org/our-work/child-migrants/?referrer=https://www.google.com/

~~GRAPHIC SOURCE~~ 

https://www.facebook.com/ReligiousFreeWomen

In my humble opinion, this graph addresses several topics. All of them controversial.

There are religious people who stand strong in their belief that an unborn child, a zygote, a fetus, should be protected at all costs.

Others have expressed their negative opinions towards refugees in this global movement caused directly by the conflicts and wars in the Middle East.

Many governments in the European Union have turned their back on them.

It’s the people of…