Today was a day out of hell for Vicky. She is deadly pale – she actually has a ghost like appearance. She was so ill that she was unable to take pain medication and now her pain is out of control.
If I am having a hard time with this how must this poor child feel? HOW CAN SHE CARRY ON???
Jared has withdrawn completely! Rene, Jared’s councillor managed to speak to Jon-Daniel today. He is in total denial! He said “My Mom is a miracle. She was not supposed to live past the age of 12 The doctors said she would die when she fell pregnant with my brother and me and she is still alive. Lots of times they said she would die…She will get better again”
At first I was filled with disbelief and then I realized with a shock that Jon-Daniel is right! A couple of weeks ago I bumped into an ex-business partner. When he inquired after Vic’s health I said that she was desperately ill and that I thought that the end was near. Frik laughed and said “that is what you said 15 years ago when she was pregnant with her eldest son…”
Reading some of the pre-blog stuff that I wrote and when I look in my Bible there are markings “Vic ICU“, “Vic critical”, etc etc etc.
Vic has been on death row all her life. I know we start dying the day we are born but for most of our lives we are oblivious to the fact. At funerals we may think of our own mortality but for the rest of it we think we are invincible. Jon-Daniel thinks his Mom is invincible.
A colleague asked me earlier today what he should pray for when he prays for Vic. I replied “Mercy”. When I got home tonight and I saw this tiny, pitiful little bundle doubled over from the pain, I panicked and thought to myself “What if Jon-Daniel is right and she gets better again?”
If there is a God He will release my poor child from this dreadful life! It is an inhuman existence that not even an animal deserves. If Vic had been an animal she would have been put out of her misery a long time ago!! God does not have to heal her. He does not even have to take all her pain away. If she could just have SOME quality of life…some pain free time with her boys… Please God hear my prayer!
Vic's Final Journey 
Those poor boys, but I can understand that they believe their mom is invincible. I felt guilty that I prayed for a peaceful ending for Vic, but after reading your last paragraph, I know that is the thing I have to keep doing. Merciful for all of you, easy for her. Sending my hearfelt love and prayers across the world, from Florida,
Susan
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We all pray for Mercy. Understanding for you and the boys.
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