What gives life will hasten death

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I am so tired.  I think it is emotional more than physical.

Vic went to the movies with her friend Tracey today.  As she wanted to leave, Hospice arrived.  Sr Siza was VERY dubious whether she should go…  Anyway the boys went with to make sure she was okay.  They are so protective of her.

When Tracey dropped her at home she was so tired she could not lift her feet.  She immediately got into bed and I know it will take days for her to recover.  I am grateful that she enjoyed the movie.  I cannot believe my child went and saw The Twilight Saga Breaking Dawn Part 2!!  She is the most anti-vampire person I know!

She said “Oh Mommy, the one part was scary but it was so much fun!”

I have read up on the effects of continued morphine administration when someone is in Renal and Liver Failure.  We have no option but to continue the pain medication regime… It will help her live and yet it will certainly contribute even hasten her death.

I don’t care.  I want Vic to be as pain-free as possible.  It is becoming increasingly difficult to do so.  She is literally on a “morphine on demand” regime.  She cannot overdose – she is too used to Morphine.  The dosages have been titrated over many years…

It will be a difficult night.



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I am a sixty plenty wife, mother, sister, grandmother and friend. I started blogging as a coping mechanism during my beautiful daughter's final journey. Vic was desperately ill for 10 years after a botched back operation. Vic's Journey ended on 18 January 2013 at 10:35. She was the most courageous person in the world and has inspired thousands of people all over the world. Vic's two boys are monuments of her existence. She was an amazing mother, daughter, sister and friend. I will miss you today, tomorrow and forever my Angle Child. https://tersiaburger.wordpress.com

10 thoughts on “What gives life will hasten death”

  1. You are so brave to share this raw, emotional experience with others. May God bless you.


  2. Take care of you. Vic will need you more as the days go on. have a satisfying Thanksgiving and know that you are loved and thought of, especially today.


  3. At this stage of Vic’s life it is quality not quantity that counts, how lovely that she was able to go to the movies with a friend and her boys will always remember seeing that movie with their Mom. It’s just so sad that the outing took so much out of her. Thinking of you all and praying that the Lord will grant you the strength you need in the coming days and months.


  4. Tersia, It doesn’t amount to much, but I’d supppsed you already have the Blogger Idol award Thomas recently awarded to me. If you haen’t, I’ve nominated you for it. you’re supposed to nominate four at least, so you’re my fifth.


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