A lifetime of sadness


2010
13.2.2011

I am so tired of being sad.  I am so terribly tired of missing my child.  I miss our easy friendship, our laughter.

I miss laughing!

I miss being happy.

I miss looking forward to tomorrow…

The pain is just too much.  I cannot bear the longing any more.

The sad thing is that I have a lifetime of sadness ahead of me.

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tersiaburger

I am a sixty something wife,mother, sister, grandmother and friend. I started blogging as a coping mechanism during my beautiful daughter's final journey. Vic was desperately ill for 10 years after a botched back operation. Vic's Journey ended on 18 January 2013 at 10:35. She was the most courageous person in the world and has inspired thousands of people all over the world. Vic's two boys are monuments of her existence. She was an amazing mother, daughter, sister and friend. I will miss you today, tomorrow and forever my Angle Child. https://tersiaburger.wordpress.com

21 thoughts on “A lifetime of sadness”

  1. Tersia, you will carry your beautiful child’s memory for a lifetime. Your life will never be the same. There will be sadness for what you miss so much. But even though today is unbearable, tomorrow is something unknown. I will wish for you the healing I experienced. Over time, the sadness turned into profound understanding and acceptance. It took a long time and now I can live with sadness. Helping others as you are doing with Stepping Stone is something that will help you heal, too. That is how your child lives on. And she is living on in ways you cannot imagine at this moment. The raw and aching absence will gradually ease, I promise you. It’s just too soon. Also, letting go of sadness does not mean you love her any less!

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  2. all normal feelings Tersia, it is sad but it is the burden to bear from now until entering eternity ourselves. Just keep thanking God for the strength and comfort that can only come from him. You have my love and hugs.

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  3. There is a time for everything. A time to be born and a time to die. A time to laugh and a time to cry. I know you cannot imagine now when there will be a time for laughter. But, it will come. Never give up!

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  4. i understand that you will always have this sadness. i also hope that you will be happy when you think those good times. hope that you will find some kind of peace in knowing that vic is at peace.

    sending warm hugs and a piece of my heart.

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  5. My daughter keeps telling me to breathe, that it’s just a day at a time; but my mind doesn’t get it. It’s all too much. I’m thinking of you, and I think of you every day.

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  6. We are all here for you T. I know we can’t take away your pain. But we can try and carry the sadness with you. I sometimes type when I maybe shouldn’t, but I just care.

    Love you xx

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