Tomorrow, on the 31st of August, we will once again celebrate Vic’s life! Every year, for the past 10 years, we expected it to be Vic’s last birthday. Today I know that Vic will live forever. She will continue to fight for another day, week, month, year…. Tomorrow we celebrate life!!
Tonight I sat doing Vic’s medication for the next 24 hours, and I popped an extra Jurnista into tomorrow morning’s tablets. Janis Ian sings “and in the winter extra blankets for the cold…” and I sing ” and on your birthday extra tablets for the pain….. My gift to Vic an extra tablet so she can a better day.
So, on the eve of my child’s birthday I am sitting thinking of what my prayer for Vic would be if I still knew how to pray.
I would pray for adequate pain relief. I would pray for some quality of life time for Vic with her boys. I would pray for Vic to have financial independence. I would pray for Vic to have peace of mind. I would pray that Vic would have enough faith in her dad and I to know it is okay to let go…the boys will be safe with us.
I do thank God that Vic is still alive. I thank God for Dr Jabber Hussain and Jurnista. I thank God for Vic’s incredible boys. I thank God for the brave decision that Vic made not to have further surgery. Above all, I thank God that Vic is home.
Tomorrow Vic will have a busy day. She has a 08:00 breakfast appointment with Lee, a 10:00 manicure booked by Esther, afternoon tea (at home) with Robbie Cramp and then dinner at a restaurant of her choice with the boys and us. I know it will take a superhuman effort but I have “rests” scheduled for the birthday girl in between events.
What is a relatively quiet day for us is a marathon for anyone as ill as Vic. I know that she will try so hard to survive the birthday and the party day. Somehow I don’t think she will manage it all. I just hope that she has a good day so she can spend some constructive time with her boys. They will need to remember this as a good birthday in years to come…..
On Saturday we will celebrate all the August/September birthdays. Vic on the 31st of August, Henk on the 2nd of September and Tom on the 4th of September…. I hope Vic will be able to handle two busy days in a row. Maybe the birthday high will carry her through it!
We have a family tradition of doing “birthday eulogies”. Everyone present gets to say something nice about the birthday person. Over the years I have told Vic how brave she is, what a fighter she is, how beautiful she is. This year I will I will merely thank her for being here!
Everything else has been said.