A year ago I posted this…
Tomorrow, on the 31st of August, we will once again celebrate Vic’s life! Every year, for the past 10 years, we expected it to be Vic’s last birthday. Today I know that Vic will live forever. She will continue to fight for another day, week, month, year…. Tomorrow we celebrate life!!
Tonight I sat doing Vic’s medication for the next 24 hours, and I popped an extra Jurnista into tomorrow morning’s tablets. Janis Ian sings “and in the winter extra blankets for the cold…” and I sing ” and on your birthday extra tablets for the pain….. My gift to Vic an extra tablet so she can a better day.
So, on the eve of my child’s birthday I am sitting thinking of what my prayer for Vic would be if I still knew how to pray.
I would pray for adequate pain relief. I would pray for some quality of life time for Vic with her boys. I would pray for Vic to have financial independence. I would pray for Vic to have peace of mind. I would pray that Vic would have enough faith in her dad and I to know it is okay to let go…the boys will be safe with us.
I do thank God that Vic is still alive. I thank God for Dr Jabber Hussain and Jurnista. I thank God for Vic’s incredible boys. I thank God for the brave decision that Vic made not to have further surgery. Above all, I thank God that Vic is home.
Tomorrow Vic will have a busy day. She has a 08:00 breakfast appointment with Lee, a 10:00 manicure booked by Esther, afternoon tea (at home) with Robbie Cramp and then dinner at a restaurant of her choice with the boys and us. I know it will take a superhuman effort but I have “rests” scheduled for the birthday girl in between events.
What is a relatively quiet day for us is a marathon for anyone as ill as Vic. I know that she will try so hard to survive the birthday and the party day. Somehow I don’t think she will manage it all. I just hope that she has a good day so she can spend some constructive time with her boys. They will need to remember this as a good birthday in years to come…..
On Saturday we will celebrate all the August/September birthdays. Vic on the 31st of August, Henk on the 2nd of September and Tom on the 4th of September…. I hope Vic will be able to handle two busy days in a row. Maybe the birthday high will carry her through it!
We have a family tradition of doing “birthday eulogies”. Everyone present gets to say something nice about the birthday person. Over the years I have told Vic how brave she is, what a fighter she is, how beautiful she is. This year I will I will merely thank her for being here!
Everything else has been said.